I really had no idea.
You remembered every single detail of that day.
You told me it seemed liked yesterday,
Do you know how much it affected me?
A funny feeling grew inside of me.
Everything was a blur to me,
until you typed everything out for me,
from the movie we watched
to the walk to my house;
It all became clear to me.
Its been so many years,
yet you still remembered.
Its been so long you've been attached to her,
yet you still remembered.
OMG. I still can't bring myself to believe you.
How I wish to erase the memories so much,
yet they are already etched in the back of my mind.
I'm so, so, so sorry to have led you on.
Don't fall away
And leave me to myself
Don't fall away
And leave love bleeding
In my hands
In my hands again
Hemorrhage by Fuel. Great song. Listening to music never fails to lift my spirits, to allow me to release whatever angst I'm feeling inside; anyhow, listening to music I love makes me feel so much better after that. It's like my therapy for stress. Playing the organ is another one. I can go on and on for hours, but reality always creep back in; studies come first, interests second.
Chemistry is driving me nuts. Biology too. S06 got numerous scoldings this week; by Gay, by Ah Lek, by Neo, oh dear, what's happening to our class? And what's with the damn principal this year, she keeps going on and on about our uniform; what the - ?! I mean, every JC has this problem, not only ours? And it doesn't even do any good to our results! She's obviously going through menopause. Soon TPJC will become 'Toot People JC'. She's not inspiring us at all, our vice-principal's the one giving prep talks and motivating us instead of her. And she's always driving home early, while we're trapped in school, waiting for the 1250 dismissal bell. -.- What a fine example.
This week has been a tiring one; with GP presentation, Biology SPA trial, Chemistry SPA Skill D, shooting.. gosh. Competitions' really soon; NUS shoot end of April and Nationals start of June. There's also NAPFA in April! RAH. Overloaded with activities.
It seems that I always update at the end of each week. Oh well. That's when I have the time to sit down and reflect what I've done for the past 4-5 days. Sometimes, it gives you a sense of achievement to look back on what you've accomplished. Yet on other occasions, it makes you wonder; what are you doing all these for?
Anyway, Lisa is out of American Idol. Such a pity, she was a really nice girl, and she has great vocals. However it was her song choices that placed her in the bottom 3 for the last 2 weeks and finally out this week. Was surprised to see Katharine in the bottom 2, though her performance the previous night didn't impress me. Thought she had a huge fan base. Well, I'm rooting for Chris, Taylor and Mandiva! :D Perhaps Elliot or Paris too. :) And next week's theme is country; am not really excited about it because I don't know country, but am curious about Chris' performance, lol.
Kevin is finally out of American Idol! Not that he's horrible, but the rest are just so good! I really think this season's the best of all. Mandisa and Paris are fantastic performers, gosh. And I simply adore Chris Daughtry! He rocks my socks! I loved his soulful rendition of Walk The Line, whether it's original or not, as others speculate. Watch it here. I'll definitely buy his album if he ever makes one. :D
I find it very, very easy to be true
I find myself alone when each day is through
Yes, I'll admit that I'm a fool for you
Because you're mine, I walk the line.
Another week has passed and gone. Time simply goes on and on, never stopping to allow us to take a breather. And we just carry on with our mundane and routine lives. What more is there to life? Sometimes one wonders. We get caught up in this superficial paper chase, in this never-ending cycle of exams, and stress that continually brings us much anguish and frustration. Urgh. I sound so pessimistic.
That's why I always enjoy long, hot baths; and my quiet times with God. :) As well as laughing over stupid You-tube videos. Hehh. :D
Oh gosh. Its Saturday already. :( Why do holidays pass so quickly?! Argh. GP is driving me crazy, having to present Monday to Wednesday's news to the class when school reopens. All these political issues on Thaksin, Ah Bian and Iran's nuclear laws is confusing me. Rahh. I'm having a splitting headache now, and having a darn flu worsens the situation. Having tissues stuck up my nostrils ain't a pretty sight. Anyway I'm not ready at all for coming Friday's Math fac test. Monday's shooting trials for the 2nd intake J1s, just hope everything turns out fine, and that we'll have more enthusiastic people like the 1st intake. :)
Watched Nanny McPhee yesterday with Lydia and Wendy. It was a pretty good show. Don't we all love happy endings? When you don't want me, but need me, I'll stay. When you want me, but do not need me, I'll leave. Wicked. Or maybe it's because it's been a really long time since I watched a movie, so any movie is good to me now. And there're better movies coming up; Pirates of the Caribbean 2 (Depp!), Ice Age 2, Tristan and Isolde, Ultraviolet (which kinda looked like another Kill Bill, which I'm a huge fan of) .. Wow. However I doubt there's time to watch all of them though. :( Rah.
Is it just me, or are you hinting something?
Chatted alot with my tuition teacher today. Discovered that he also likes Indonesian food! :) I just loove Indo food, even more than Thai. It just has more kick in the spices. Got to know him much better today, talked about his girlfriend and relationships, etc. It was interesting. I thought one of his advice is pretty true; that whenever you're looking for a boyfriend, first watch how he treats his friends and family, 'cos that's how he's going to treat you in future. :) Isn't that so true?
Anyway, there's shooting tomorrow, and I'm meeting Lydia after that for some catching up and homework. :) Alrighty, shall go watch Da Chang Jing now and find out why so many people are so hyped up over that show.
I'm really disappointed with you guys. To think we have been friends since secondary school, or perhaps, even primary school. This is how the friendship has so easily turned into; now I realize how fragile and shallow our friendship was in the beginning. It hasn't even been two years, and we have drifted so much. What more ten years down the road? If having someone else in your life has changed you so much, perhaps even completely, I don't know how it's going to be in the future. I wonder when you all grow up and look back on this incident, you'll realise how childish it was, especially you, and how you've lost all your friends in the course.
I think we're on the verge of losing our friendship already. All you think is about your other halfs, and treating us as spare tyres; when your other half is busy, then you'll look for us. C'mon, the chalet might be one of the last times we'll ever meet up in a whole group before we go on with our lives, and you guys with poly lives, or whatever. I sometimes wonder why should I care so much when you guys don't even care anymore? So heck with your lives, whatever you're going to do with your results. You reap what you sow, how true. Though this may sound mean, but it's true, your results were the consequence of these relationships. I don't even think it was worth it at all. I believe that you guys will do very well if you weren't distracted. Its really obvious how she got into a poly course of her choice while the rest of you didn't even get into a school. I can't believe you guys let yourselves be distracted at such a crucial period like the O'Levels. I really regretted not waking you guys up then; though I know my efforts would be fruitless.
Disappointed beyond words. But I'm really glad three of us are still together, heck about the rest. I'm just so sick and tired of all this crap. I really remininisce the past where all 6 of us would hang out and have so much fun, but I guess this will just stay in the memories, the past.
Ugh, I really hate this. :'(
Woots! Just came back from 'Wild wild wet'-ing with Vera, Shulin and Jiat Yue. Sunburnt on the shoulders and face! Gosh. The colour difference is really obvious. I look like a baboon's butt now. But it was really fun! :D Laughed 'till we were so freaking tired. Kept capsizing each other's floats, and trying to get onto the floats as well. -.- Samsung slide rocked. We should have more outings like this! A pity Shaina couldn't join us. :(
In a flash, the first day of the March holidays is over! Bleah. And I miss my long fringe. Layered my hair on Saturday, and my fringe is kinda short now it looks weird. Grow, fringe, grow! And I suddenly have this craving to shop, but this week is kinda packed with stuff. I'm only free tomorrow to shop. Hmm. Wonder who's free tomorrow?
Now whenever I listen to Bu De Bu Ai by Wilbur Pan, I immediately think of this.
And the uZap advertisement is driving me insane! Ugh.
This had me in stitches. Freaking funny!
Enjoy! :D
Fly me to the moon
And let me play among the stars
Let me see what spring is like on
Jupiter and Mars
In other words, hold my hand
In other words, darling, kiss me
Fill my heart with song
And let me sing forever more
You are all I long for
All I worship and adore
In other words, please be true
In other words, I love you
Fly me to the Moon - Frank Sinatra
Click to play the song :)
I'm currently learning this song on the organ. :) Beautiful song. Has this great jazz feel to it. There were several times I felt like stopping organ classes, to lift this whole burden of practising improvisation (urgh, my least favourtie part) and forcing myself to master all these pieces, so as to concentrate more on my studies and A'levels. But whenever I manage to master a piece, I gain this overwhelming sense of satisfaction, and the sheer joy in playing the organ made me banish the thought of stopping classes.
Sometimes, I ask myself, why am I putting so many responsibilities on myself? Organ, violin, shooting exco, A'levels.. interact mentoring; when I can't even help myself? Heard from coach that there's going to be another NUS Shoot. Gosh. Time management is key. But whenever I come home early from school, I keep telling myself to study, to finish my tutorials. Yet, when I return home, I waste my time idling away at the computer or simply, watching television and sleeping. Urgh.
Outing with Hot chicks next Monday! Our very first official outing, LOL. Pretty excited about it. :) Considering to go NUS or SMU open house Saturday, but not confirmed yet. March holidays is going to be darn packed, and still have to set aside time to mug for the faculty tests. Oh well, life's like that. Talking about life, a guy from my school recently committed suicide. It was a shocker, and now I know, life is such a fragile thing.
Mr. Justea. That's what I name my tutor secretly, haha. It's simply because everytime he comes for tuition, my dad would serve him Justea, and whenever he talks, whoaa, the smell of Justea is very strong. It kinda smells like beer, actually. He's a pretty funky guy, really easy to talk to.
Anyway, David is out of American Idol. :( He's so friggin cute. However though his dimples are to die for (!!), he had to go. His performance last night was really mediocre compared to the rest; I thought Sway was great! I love his voice, and 'Overjoyed' was better than the previous week's falsetto. A pity he's out. I thought the guys really outperformed the girls, there's Elliot, Taylor and Chris. Chris is the bomb man. Rooting for these 3. :) I love Paris too, she's full of spunk! And I looove the song that Will sang, 'Lady' by Kenny Rogers, although I agree it was pretty safe for the competition.
Lady..
I'm your knight in shining armour, and I love you
You have made me what I am and I am yours.
Aw man! I almost melted when I heard him sing that song. And although I can't stand Gedeon, he totally rocked last night. He's an amazing performer. Ace was terrible with the Daniel Bedingfield song. I don't get his look. He simply struggled through the whole song, I almost had the urge to put it mute. That song has always been my favourite song! Gosh, the agony.
Okay, now I sound like some American Idol reviewer. Oh dear. Anyway I'm so glad that the weekend's here! And congrats to those who got their posting results! :)
:) I got an unexpected b3 for my AO chinese. As usual, my oral's a measly pass, similar to the Olevels. I remembered on that fateful day for the AO chinese oral, we were late and had to be the last few to sit for the exam. We were freaking out and all, and even for such a simple topic as 'internet chatting', I stuttered and didn't have much to say.
Well, today was the release of the Alevel results too. Saw the shooting seniors, but this time, with bald heads! It was quite a funny sight. LW was top of the level! Gosh, he's such a smart alec. His result slip looked so nice.. I wish next year, mine would be too. :) So, motivation! The rest had fine results too, congratulations to everyone!
At times, I really don't know whether to laugh or cry.